I had a tough visit to the gyn. this morning for my annual paps. There had to be 20 pregnant women in the waiting room and babies everywhere. That's another reason I like my infertility specialist... you rarely see pregnant women there, obviously.

After my appointment I just sat in the car and cried... wondering how much longer I can deal with this. We're at 8 1/2 years and frankly, I'm just sick of it all. Sometimes, I get to the point of trying to not want kids... For some reason, I seem to think it will be easier to deal with it! I'm sure some of you can identify.

God and I had a talk and I'm doing better now.

We've been taking a break from treatment for about 1.5 years and it has been nice. I think we'll give it one more round of treatments and then make some decisions. I need to have another laparoscopy to check for more endometriosis (since it's been 5 years since my last one) and then we'll probably do another round of fertility meds. Near the end of the year, maybe an IUI, depending on money.

For those of you who are "unexplained infertility" do you ever just wish they'd find something wrong so you can attempt to fix it? I think it is a tough round not knowing.

Hugs to you all today,

IssyMae